12 Mar On Quitting
Do you ever get told you’re doing too much? It’s my most popular criticism from people who really know me. I’ll sometimes angrily respond in my head, You just don’t have the stamina I do!!! but end up crying a few days later because I’m overlwhelmed.
Yesterday I paced the 8th floor hallway of Concordia University’s Music department, mustering up the courage to make the I quit call. I paused to look at the city below from a floor to ceiling window and contemplate. While deep in thought, some music students came out of a nearby classroom: “Don’t jump!!!” they joked. With feelings of, Will I lose out on opportunities if I quit? Am I letting him down? Am I just lazy? Maybe I can manage to do this all? I feel sooo bad!, it probably looked like I wanted to.
Jerked out of my overanalysis by their laughter, and my response, which was, “But I can fly!!!”, I pushed the call button. Amid some errrs and ummms and a guilty-sounding tone of voice, I quit!
Today, I feel better and more focused on my life theme, which is to make music and inspire others to do what they really want to do with their lives. I’m reminded of what I recently read in Storyline 2.0:
“When we play too many roles, our story suffers for clarity…people around you may be confused as to what your life is about. And not only this…you’re likely getting burned out.” (Donald Miller)
So, what do you need to quit?
3 quick discernment thoughts:
1) A lot of times what you need to quit is a good thing. I quit writing a book for underprivileged kids. Yaaa throw that guilt on me!
2) The person you most trust, my sister in my case, will encourage your quitting.
3) But you need to pay the bills? While building to your dream job, make sure your current job isn’t emotionally draining.
Do you feel bogged down by all you do? What did it feel like once you quit?